har khata gunaah nahi hoti…

November 1, 2014

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le ke gham ghar lautey….

October 27, 2014

nikley they khareedaney muhabbat,ley ke gham ghar lautey,
bazaar meiN baDDi mushkil utthaai jaaN bachaney ke liye!

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tere paas aate aate wo manzar e khaas dekhe mainey,
zaroor in rastoN pe tumney chahal kadami kii hogi!

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Jo dariya hameyN dekh leta to tthahar jaata,
paani sar ke upar jaata aur sab duub jaata!

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guzar jaate jo had se to kya na hota,
na ham hote na tumhara pata hota,
baitthe haiN ik lakeer ke idhar udhar,
ye na hoti to bada achha hota!

‘kayar’

Ramcharit Charcha CCCLVIII

October 27, 2014

II Shree Guruvey Namah II

Jai Shri Ram,

II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II

राम राम रट बिकल भुआलू। जनु बिनु पंख बिहंग बेहालू।।
हृदयँ मनाव भोरु जनि होई। रामहि जाइ कहै जनि कोई।।
उदउ करहु जनि रबि रघुकुल गुर। अवध बिलोकि सूल होइहि उर।।
भूप प्रीति कैकइ कठिनाई। उभय अवधि बिधि रची बनाई।।
बिलपत नृपहि भयउ भिनुसारा। बीना बेनु संख धुनि द्वारा।।
पढ़हिं भाट गुन गावहिं गायक। सुनत नृपहि जनु लागहिं सायक।।
मंगल सकल सोहाहिं न कैसें। सहगामिनिहि बिभूषन जैसें।।
तेहिं निसि नीद परी नहि काहू। राम दरस लालसा उछाहू।।
दो0-द्वार भीर सेवक सचिव कहहिं उदित रबि देखि।
जागेउ अजहुँ न अवधपति कारनु कवनु बिसेषि।।37।।

We covered up to Doha 37 of Ayodhya Kand in Ramcharit Manas of Tulsidas in the last post and learned that king tried to influence Kaikeyi in many ways to make her retract but she remained adamant and lastly king saw that it was now fait accompli, the grim reality that he would lose life and therefore asked Kaikeyi to go out of his sight and not speak a word. The king then began to take name of Ram repeatedly deeply anguished and distraught. He prayed for the dawn to never take place and Ram be not told of what Kaikeyi wanted. While the king spent the night lamenting and moaning, the world outside was cheery through out the night as people expected to see Ram as their king the next morning. The normal activities commenced in the palace but well past the day break time the king did not come out and this gave rise to the servants and ministers making speculation about what may have happened for it was very unusual.

पछिले पहर भूपु नित जागा। आजु हमहि बड़ अचरजु लागा।।
जाहु सुमंत्र जगावहु जाई। कीजिअ काजु रजायसु पाई।।
गए सुमंत्रु तब राउर माही। देखि भयावन जात डेराहीं।।
धाइ खाइ जनु जाइ न हेरा। मानहुँ बिपति बिषाद बसेरा।।
पूछें कोउ न ऊतरु देई। गए जेंहिं भवन भूप कैकैई।।
कहि जयजीव बैठ सिरु नाई। दैखि भूप गति गयउ सुखाई।।
सोच बिकल बिबरन महि परेऊ। मानहुँ कमल मूलु परिहरेऊ।।
सचिउ सभीत सकइ नहिं पूँछी। बोली असुभ भरी सुभ छूछी।।
दो0-परी न राजहि नीद निसि हेतु जान जगदीसु।
रामु रामु रटि भोरु किय कहइ न मरमु महीसु।।38।।

The people outside the palace discussed that the king was in the habit of rising right before the dawn everyday and thought that something was amiss. They advised Sumantra, the friend and confidant of the king saying, “O Sumantra, you must go in and wake up the king, then you must obtain his permission and carry out what is needed to be done.”

Sumantra then went inside the palace but found the atmosphere very scary there. He feared as if some invisible beast would spring up and eat him alive, the place looked like abode of woes and grief. He called out but no body responded, he then proceeded towards the living quarters of Kaikeyi expecting to find king there. When he saw the king there he bowed his head down before the king and wished him long life and victory but became pale noticing the condition of the king. He found the king engrossed in worrisome thoughts, he was absolutely colorless and he lay spread on the naked floor there, he resembled a lotus which had been cut off from its roots and had withered for want of nourishment and water.

Looking to gravity of situation the minister couldn’t dare to ask anything and right at that moment Kaikeyi, the queen who was mired in evil thought and was bereft of any good intentions spoke menacingly, “The king couldn’t sleep for the whole night, only the God knows what is the reason for it. He is only repeating name of Ram, keeps uttering ‘Ram, Ram…” but doesn’t say a word about the reality behind it.”

(Kiakeyi cunningly avoided the possibility of any talk between the minister and king for he would have assessed the situation taking in to account the propriety and the angle of the states welfare impersonally and would have advised accordingly while Kaikeyi wanted every thing sealed before intervention by others.)

आनहु रामहि बेगि बोलाई। समाचार तब पूँछेहु आई।।
चलेउ सुमंत्र राय रूख जानी। लखी कुचालि कीन्हि कछु रानी।।
सोच बिकल मग परइ न पाऊ। रामहि बोलि कहिहि का राऊ।।
उर धरि धीरजु गयउ दुआरें। पूछँहिं सकल देखि मनु मारें।।
समाधानु करि सो सबही का। गयउ जहाँ दिनकर कुल टीका।।
रामु सुमंत्रहि आवत देखा। आदरु कीन्ह पिता सम लेखा।।
निरखि बदनु कहि भूप रजाई। रघुकुलदीपहि चलेउ लेवाई।।
रामु कुभाँति सचिव सँग जाहीं। देखि लोग जहँ तहँ बिलखाहीं।।
दो0-जाइ दीख रघुबंसमनि नरपति निपट कुसाजु।।
सहमि परेउ लखि सिंघिनिहि मनहुँ बृद्ध गजराजु।।39।।

The queen said, “Go immediately and summon Ram, only afterwards ask what the matter is.” Sumantra would have stayed but he saw king making a gesture approving it hence went to call Ram; he had however seen that the queen had schemed some thing viciously. This upset Sumantra and he became worried (for it was a crucial moment in the history of Ayodhya, great king Dashrath was going to handover reins to younger generation after a successful long stint) and walked with unsteady steps, he was concerned as to what the king would tell Ram. Gathering courage and keeping patience he first reached the gate of the palace and made an attempt to assure the people gathered there who were very anxiously inquiring looking at him in somber mood (as the king’s condition was to be kept a secret at this moment). He later went to meet Ram, the one having highest regard among the scions of sun-dynasty. When Ram noted that Sumantra was coming, he went forward and paid his respects to him considering him equal to his own father.

The minister looked straightly in the face of Shri Ram and conveyed to him what the king had wanted; Sumantra then returned followed by Ram, the shining star of the family of Raghus. When people noted that Ram along with the minister was going in an uncalled for rush at that morning hour, they became suspicious of some untoward happening and began to deplore, the fear of unknown had gripped them.

Ram, the gem in the family of Raghus, saw there that the king was in utterly hopeless state like an aged and weak elephant has fallen down struck by fear after sighting a lioness.

(A lioness wouldn’t show mercy towards its prey who had lost capacity to fight back, this is the rule of jungles. Ram could make out that no sanity of behavior could be expected of the queen, his step mother, at that time. How beautifully Ram would handle the situation will be seen by us in later posts.)

We have now covered up to Doha 39 0f Ayodhya Kand.

Bhavani Shankar ki Jai!
Shri Jankivallabho Vijayatey!
Sant Samaj Ko Pranam!
Goswami Tulsidas Ki Jai!

HariOm,
Krishna Khandelwal

yuuN to is duniya meiN sab khatm honey ke kiye hai…

October 27, 2014

koi vaadaa to kijiye sarkaar merey,
maaluum hai hamiiN ko nibhaanaa hogaa.
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husn waloN se ye sulook achha nahiiN hota,
kariye ishq na mazaaq unse achhaa nahiiN hota.
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khuraaq e ishq piitey rahiye,
umr bhi shaayad daraaz ho jaaye!
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Jab jab dil jalaa aankh se aansoo dhharkey,
ye kaisa rishtaa hai hastii ke do pahaluoN meiN.
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sard hoTon pe jaa ke tikatey haiN kabhi laboN ki garmi se pighaltey haiN jaam,
ugtey suraj ke saath chamakatey haiN dhaltey din ke saath khanaktey haiN jaam!
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aalam e bekhudi jo chhaa jaaye, kya se kya na hota jaaye!
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gazloN meiN jo kah daalaa khud ko bhi maaloom na tha,
jabsey jaana itna kuchh bekali jaatii nahiiN!
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Haath meiN qalam aur nazar sab taraf rakhatey haiN,
Go ke apne se ziada duniya ki fikar rakhatey haiN!
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bas ek baar liya naam wo chhaap apni lagaa gaye,
dil se asar jaata nahiiN baat adhuuri sunaa gaye!
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zakhm khaa liye beshumaar raah e munhabbat meiN,
kismat na ley gayi kabhi unki qurbat meiN,
zikr karta huuN to sab hanstey haiN duniyawaley,
kahtey haiN kami rahi gayi teri mannat meiN!

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ki hamney himaaqat jo wafa ki jee kaDDaa kar key,
berukhi apney orhii qusoor mera hai kah kar key!
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jitnoN ko lagaayaa seeney se,
ik jaan nichhaawar kartey aaye!
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ghodoN ke sawaar kai baar paidal bhi chaltey haiN,
khuda ki rahmat kabhi boht der se numaaaya hoti hai!
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tumney na daaliiN beDDiyaaN pairoN meiN merey lekin,
phir bhi tumharey dar se ye duur ley jaatey nahiiN!
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lagtaa hai #muhabbat tumney kabhi kii nahiiN hogi,
warna sawaal itney hamsey nahiiN khud se kiye hotey!
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khata hamsey bhi hui ye ehsaas na kara paaye unko,
ke muhabbat to wo bhi kartey haiN albatta sahmey hue!
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apna sa dard kaiyoN ko tha unsey hamney kah diya,
unka bhi kuchh kam hua aur mera bhi kuchh kam hua!
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but-parsti khud-parasti fark kahiiN koi nahiiN,
shiddat se kuchh bhi karke dekho khuda parast ho jaaogey!
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but-parsti khud-parasti fark kahiiN koi nahiiN,
shiddat se kuchh karke dekho khuda parast ho jaaogey!
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dekh lo auqaat meri phir dil meiN khud aa jaana tum,
apna baDDappan dekh yuuN bach ke nikal na jaana tum!
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maiN jab bhi likhuuN haal e dil tera naam likhaa jataa hai, phir tere naam ke aagey tera naam likhtaa chalaa jaataa hai.
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aaiye to sahii kijiye shiqaayat jitni ho tabiiyat, hamney samajh liya ke ye sab ba-taur muhabbat hua karta hai.
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Itna to kar bharosaa apne pe aur mujhpey,ke jab jab mileNgey zindagi laut laut aayegi.
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apne dil ki mazaar se utthhuuN to talaashuuN mazaar kisi aur ki, kahaaN armaaN bhi itne bemaut mar ke dafn hue hoNgey.
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koi jaaN se jaaye aur tab aaye qaraar tumko,kauN tum talak aaye khud ko na zibah kar luuN.
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wo to maalik sabka hai khaas mera hai ik aur , wo baksh dey jaaN jo chaahuuN inka hai usool aur.
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saaNs meri chalati hai tab tak to rahogey, zinda bhi aur panapatey bhi rahogey.
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na roiye jo na pyar kare koi,karie khub pyar jo kare koi,dekha dukh kisi ka to aNkh apni bhigoi,hans liye jo pyar se dekhey koi
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tum ko khud sey judaa kahaaN samjhatey haiN, yuuN karkey tumko yaad kartey haiN khud ko samajhatey haiN.
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naa pataa mehboob ka tha na raastoN ka tha ilm, na tha aitbaar kisi hamsafar pe manzil phir bhi mil gayii!
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faasla mitaaney chaley ham khud mit gaye, faasla darasl thaa hi nahiiN!
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neeNd aati jaaN jaati nahiiN,mil ke kheltey dil se gaiNd ki tarah.
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kuchh duur aur chaley aaiye, manzil bDDi der se inzaar meiN hai.
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sitam tum pe kya khud pe kartey haiN, isko bhi na muhobat samjhiye to kya hogi.
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ham barhhaayeN qadam ya unke barhhatey aayeN, dil ka dharhhakana kam ho tu baat aage barhhaayeN.
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gareebaaN jo phat gaya tha tera ‘gar see liya hota, yuuN taish meiN daaman hamaney jhataka na hota.
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raaz toH ye ke kuchh raaz nahiiN hai, kiso pataa nahiiN ke dil shaad nahiiN hai!
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unka nazareyN churaana na gaya, hamaara churaaa nazreyN dekhna na gaya.
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raaz aise kahiiN chhuptey kahaaN haiN, aapne bataaya zaroo pataa hameiN tha!
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pyaar ko lafzoN ki chaadar pe sazaaney waloN, ye to samajho pahley ye to ik ehsaas hai!
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jo bas usi ki yaad hai tasawur meiN bhi ek wo,
samet bikhari muhabbat ko qadamoN meiN daal do.
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tamanna milaney ki ‘gar tasawur meiN toH mil lo ,
khawboN ka bharosa kya jaaney kis se milaa deyN.
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dil ko deyN ilzaam kyuN dena galat hai,
dil ko khuda ne dimaag diya kidhar hai.
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jee bhar ke pii sharaab jee bhar jee lo yaaroN,
ye zindagi hai kis liye ye jee ke jaan lo yaaroN.
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arey itna tu mat roiye ke aansoo hi na bacheyn,
yuuN to duniya meiN sab khatm hone ke liye hai.

‘kayar’

Ramcharit Charcha CCCLVII

October 26, 2014

II Shree Guruvey Namah II

Jai Shri Ram,

II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II

ब्याकुल राउ सिथिल सब गाता। करिनि कलपतरु मनहुँ निपाता।।
कंठु सूख मुख आव न बानी। जनु पाठीनु दीन बिनु पानी।।
पुनि कह कटु कठोर कैकेई। मनहुँ घाय महुँ माहुर देई।।
जौं अंतहुँ अस करतबु रहेऊ। मागु मागु तुम्ह केहिं बल कहेऊ।।
दुइ कि होइ एक समय भुआला। हँसब ठठाइ फुलाउब गाला।।
दानि कहाउब अरु कृपनाई। होइ कि खेम कुसल रौताई।।
छाड़हु बचनु कि धीरजु धरहू। जनि अबला जिमि करुना करहू।।
तनु तिय तनय धामु धनु धरनी। सत्यसंध कहुँ तृन सम बरनी।।
दो0-मरम बचन सुनि राउ कह कहु कछु दोषु न तोर।
लागेउ तोहि पिसाच जिमि कालु कहावत मोर।।35।।û

We covered up to Doha 35 of Ayodhya Kand in Ramcharit Manas of Tulsidas in the last post and learned that the king became utterly miserable and weak up on listening to Kaikeyi’s harsh words which had some element of reality too. The king now saw what was coming and realized that it was not just Kaikeyi speaking, it was his own death that was speaking through her and conveyed this to Kaikeyi.

चहत न भरत भूपतहि भोरें। बिधि बस कुमति बसी जिय तोरें।।
सो सबु मोर पाप परिनामू। भयउ कुठाहर जेहिं बिधि बामू।।
सुबस बसिहि फिरि अवध सुहाई। सब गुन धाम राम प्रभुताई।।
करिहहिं भाइ सकल सेवकाई। होइहि तिहुँ पुर राम बड़ाई।।
तोर कलंकु मोर पछिताऊ। मुएहुँ न मिटहि न जाइहि काऊ।।
अब तोहि नीक लाग करु सोई। लोचन ओट बैठु मुहु गोई।।
जब लगि जिऔं कहउँ कर जोरी। तब लगि जनि कछु कहसि बहोरी।।
फिरि पछितैहसि अंत अभागी। मारसि गाइ नहारु लागी।।
दो0-परेउ राउ कहि कोटि बिधि काहे करसि निदानु।
कपट सयानि न कहति कछु जागति मनहुँ मसानु।।36।।

The king lastly suggested to Kaikeyi to find some way and redeem the situation saying, “Bharat has never had any interest in becoming king of Ayodhya, its by quirk of fate that you have callousness at the core of your thinking. May be its all result of my sins that Brahma, the creator, has become adverse to me. There is chance that Ayodhya will still see itself settled once again under an able guardian like Ram as His style of governance contains all the good qualities. All of His brothers will serve Him very ably and His name will spread in all three worlds.”

“Otherwise”, told the king, “it will be a blot on your character that will never go and my guilt and resulting repentance will never go, even after our death. Whatever is deemed right by you, you may do but at least get out of my sight and cover your face so I don’t see it any more. Besides, I pray to you with folded hands to not speak to me any further till I am alive. In the end you will surely ruefully lament with disgrace like a woman who has run out of luck, you have tried to kill the cow for its guts.”

In this manner the king attempted to salvage the situation in many ways but Kaikeyi did not pay any heed. The wicked but smart woman kept stoically silent as if she had been keeping busy in magical rituals performed at the cremation ground where deadly silence prevails.

We have now covered up to Doha 36 of Ayodhya Kand.

राम राम रट बिकल भुआलू। जनु बिनु पंख बिहंग बेहालू।।
हृदयँ मनाव भोरु जनि होई। रामहि जाइ कहै जनि कोई।।
उदउ करहु जनि रबि रघुकुल गुर। अवध बिलोकि सूल होइहि उर।।
भूप प्रीति कैकइ कठिनाई। उभय अवधि बिधि रची बनाई।।
बिलपत नृपहि भयउ भिनुसारा। बीना बेनु संख धुनि द्वारा।।
पढ़हिं भाट गुन गावहिं गायक। सुनत नृपहि जनु लागहिं सायक।।
मंगल सकल सोहाहिं न कैसें। सहगामिनिहि बिभूषन जैसें।।
तेहिं निसि नीद परी नहि काहू। राम दरस लालसा उछाहू।।
दो0-द्वार भीर सेवक सचिव कहहिं उदित रबि देखि।
जागेउ अजहुँ न अवधपति कारनु कवनु बिसेषि।।37।।

The king, now agonizing and weary, took to repeating ‘Ram, Ram…’ continuously like a bird without its wings becomes absolutely helpless and can only cry. The king was only praying silently within his heart, “O God, let there be no morning, let no one say what has happened in the night to Ram, O Sun, the greatest one in the family of Raghus, you would be feeling the intense prick in your heart watching the condition of Avadh when you rise (hence better if the dawn does not happen).”

The king’s affection (for Shri Ram) and Kaikeyi’s stubborn attitude, both were at the extreme of possible limits that had been created by the creator of universe. The day broke while the king kept lamenting and music of flutes and conch-shell blowing commenced at the gates of the palace, the bards began to sing praises of the king; all these sounds made the king all the more uncomfortable. All these signs of good times were as disliked by the king as a widow accompanying her dead husband on the funeral pier despises the ornaments on her body. This condition of king apart, even the members of public did not sleep through out the night, they were so upbeat about having the sight of Shri Ram as their king the next morning.

The servants of the king and the his ministers became skeptical when they saw the the day had progressed after the rise of sun but the king hadn’t come out (which was unusual as the king always used to get up before the sun rise and come out), they discussed between themselves as to what might be the reason for his being held up and still lying in bed.

We have now covered up to Doha 37 of Ayodhya Kand.

Bhavani Shankar Ki Jai!
Shri Jankivallabho Vijayatey!
Sant Samaj Ko Pranam!
Goswami Tulsidas Ki jai!

HariOm,
Krishna Khandelwal

(King Dashrath had been attracted to Kaikeyi for her beauty which pleased his sense of seeing and also for her sweet voice which pleased his sense of hearing but in changed circumstances he had to ask the same Kaikeyi to come before his eyes and to not speak. This is important for all of us understand that the the same things that please senses at one time become irritants to us. This understanding will save us from being prisoners of our senses and the objects of there liking, this can change any time. At the time of utter distress and unbearable agony the Lord’s name will always give comfort whether we have known him as avatar of the Supreme God or not.)

na tera dar yaad hai na makaan yaad hai…

October 26, 2014

hamne khaaii hai kasam ke ilzaam saarey ham lengey,
par lagta hai zulm ab aashiqoN pe utne hote nahiiN.
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SukooN ka khazaana hai zameeN doz dil meiN,
baittho jaao tasally se phir karo khoz uski.
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kaantoN ki sej pe bichaarey gulab sotey haiN,
tum kyoN unkey saamney wasl ke manzar sajaao.
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luft utthaaiye mazey se jab ke wo baDDa pachhtayega,
ke dard diya us shay ko jisey chain ka mazaa ayegaa!
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iraadey bane raheyN hoN sharaarateyN na bhi kariye to kya,
jab waqt mauzuuN aa jaayega kya na hoNgi khud ba khud kya.
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kya zamaana aa gayaa na jalata ho dil to bhi jalaatey haiN,
ho chuka ho raakh jal ke to jaakar kahiiN chhupaatey haiN.
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badda achcha hai ye toH dono ik saath sambhal jaayeNgey,
tum hameyN jis gharhii bhoolo ham tumhyN bhool jaayeNgey.
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ghar ke baahar hameyN dhuuNdho to mileNgey kaise,
dil meiN terey chhuppey baitthey haiN kabsey ham.
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kisney kahaa hai ke jal jaaogey gham ki aatish meiN,
nijaat na miley jis gham sey wo to baDDey kaam ka hai.
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jinheyN ye pataa bhi nahiiN hai kauN kya hai,
tayyari magar puuri laDDwaaney ki rakhey haiN!
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rajdhaaniyoN meiN baDDey chor bastey haiN,
kisi ki na bhi ho izaazat par bastey haiN,
sikkey wahaaN ab mehnat ki kamaai ke nahi,
haraam ki kamaai ke hi bas chaltey haiN!
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rukhsat to kiya tuuney par teri bebasi yaad hai,
na ab tera dar yaad hai na tera makaan yaad hai.
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hawa ke jhoNkey se tum aaye bujh gayii shamaayeN,
phailii hai har taraf roshni ye maajraa kya hai!
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zabaan yuuN hi nahiiN meetthee ho jaati,
pahle muabbat ki chashni meiN pagati hai!
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Jai Shyam Sunder Niraley, Merey Mohan Murli Waley,
bhav saagar meiN duuba jaauN tuuhi mujhey nikaaley!

‘kayar’

Ramcharit Charcha CCCLVI

October 23, 2014

II Shree Guruvey Namah II

Jai Shri Ram,

II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II

जिऐ मीन बरू बारि बिहीना। मनि बिनु फनिकु जिऐ दुख दीना।।
कहउँ सुभाउ न छलु मन माहीं। जीवनु मोर राम बिनु नाहीं।।
समुझि देखु जियँ प्रिया प्रबीना। जीवनु राम दरस आधीना।।
सुनि म्रदु बचन कुमति अति जरई। मनहुँ अनल आहुति घृत परई।।
कहइ करहु किन कोटि उपाया। इहाँ न लागिहि राउरि माया।।
देहु कि लेहु अजसु करि नाहीं। मोहि न बहुत प्रपंच सोहाहीं।
रामु साधु तुम्ह साधु सयाने। राममातु भलि सब पहिचाने।।
जस कौसिलाँ मोर भल ताका। तस फलु उन्हहि देउँ करि साका।।
दो0-होत प्रात मुनिबेष धरि जौं न रामु बन जाहिं।
मोर मरनु राउर अजस नृप समुझिअ मन माहिं।।33।।

We covered up to Doha 33 of Ayodhya Kand in Ramcharit Manas of Tulsidas in the last post and learned that King Dashrath tried to explain to Kaikeyi that it was not possible for him to live even for a moment without Ram present before his eyes and that she should appreciate this point with seriousness. Dashrath’s saying so didn’t impress Kaikeyi and on the contrary she got more worked up and told that in whatever way the king wanted to placate her she was not interested in it in the least. She declared that it would be either Ram going to forest or king’s imaged would get tarnished for not honoring word of his. She said that she knew enough about Ram’s gentility and his own sincerity and also how much Kaushalya was concerned for her welfare. She challenged that she would ensure a treatment meted out to Kaushalya that she schemed against her. She finally warned the king that he should either see to it that Ram goes in to jungles putting on clothes meant for ascetics or be ready for her demise as well as his own reputation getting tarnished.

अस कहि कुटिल भई उठि ठाढ़ी। मानहुँ रोष तरंगिनि बाढ़ी।।
पाप पहार प्रगट भइ सोई। भरी क्रोध जल जाइ न जोई।।
दोउ बर कूल कठिन हठ धारा। भवँर कूबरी बचन प्रचारा।।
ढाहत भूपरूप तरु मूला। चली बिपति बारिधि अनुकूला।।
लखी नरेस बात फुरि साँची। तिय मिस मीचु सीस पर नाची।।
गहि पद बिनय कीन्ह बैठारी। जनि दिनकर कुल होसि कुठारी।।
मागु माथ अबहीं देउँ तोही। राम बिरहँ जनि मारसि मोही।।
राखु राम कहुँ जेहि तेहि भाँती। नाहिं त जरिहि जनम भरि छाती।।
दो0-देखी ब्याधि असाध नृपु परेउ धरनि धुनि माथ।
कहत परम आरत बचन राम राम रघुनाथ।।34।।

Atrocious Kaikeyi stood up defiantly after throwing her challenges as if an spate of anger had emerged from the mountain of sin and gushed down fiercely which looked too menacing; its two banks seemed to have been formed by the two boons and the bulk of its swift forceful flow formed by her own tenacity. The intense churning of streaming waters of anger seemed to have substance from the humpbacked Manthara’s indoctrination of Kaikeyi, it was working to uproot the king himself who had become static like a tree and the flow was headed towards a sea of troubles. It was now that the king felt sure that his death was near and was dancing over his head at the stance of his own woman.

It was then that king grabbed the feet of Kaikeyi and got her seated near himself taking recourse to coaxing and cajoling. The king then besought her saying, “be careful and don’t become an axe to destroy the solar clan, you may ask for my own head and I would offer it right here and now but its not right to bring my end by separating me from Ram. You may do well to keep Ram here itself by ascribing any kind of role to him, in whatever way you can otherwise your own heart will woefully burn for this one mistake all your life (and I will not be there any more).”

The king was now aware that the disease was beyond treatment and he fell to the ground striking his head with hands and uttered heartrendingly the words ‘Ram Ram Raghunath’ as the last resort for the person in greatly distressful situation as the name of the Lord alone can be of any comfort or salvation.

We have now covered up to Doha 34 of Ayodhya Kand.

ब्याकुल राउ सिथिल सब गाता। करिनि कलपतरु मनहुँ निपाता।।
कंठु सूख मुख आव न बानी। जनु पाठीनु दीन बिनु पानी।।
पुनि कह कटु कठोर कैकेई। मनहुँ घाय महुँ माहुर देई।।
जौं अंतहुँ अस करतबु रहेऊ। मागु मागु तुम्ह केहिं बल कहेऊ।।
दुइ कि होइ एक समय भुआला। हँसब ठठाइ फुलाउब गाला।।
दानि कहाउब अरु कृपनाई। होइ कि खेम कुसल रौताई।।.
छाड़हु बचनु कि धीरजु धरहू। जनि अबला जिमि करुना करहू।।
तनु तिय तनय धामु धनु धरनी। सत्यसंध कहुँ तृन सम बरनी।।
दो0-मरम बचन सुनि राउ कह कहु कछु दोषु न तोर।
लागेउ तोहि पिसाच जिमि कालु कहावत मोर।।35।।

The king was now very uneasy and distressed, his body became weak and unresponsive; up till now he could reward every ones as per their wishes like Kalptaru, the divine tree and suddenly he was now rendered powerless by Kaikeyi’s onslought like a tree pulled down by a wily female elephant. His throat became parched and words stopped coming out of his mouth, his condition was now no better than a pitiable fish out of water.

Kaikeyi continued with her biting assertion as if she was pouring poison in to the wounds inflicted by her on body of King Dashrath. She told the king, “If this is what you had to demonstrate (such weakness) in the end than what was that strength based on which you declared to me ‘ask, ask whatever you wish’. Is it possible to laugh loudly and to be grim-faced too at the same time, O Monarch. You want to be called a liberal and charity oriented person and you also show miserly traits. Can a heroic fighter expect to remain unscathed and unruffled. Now you have two choices, either go back on word or have patience and bear what is coming, its not right to be lamenting like a powerless woman.

“Be it one’s own body, son, wife, home, wealth or land, for a person who is well established in discharge of his commitment all of these things are as worthless as a straw and this is well known.”

When the king listened to these emotionally upsetting word which had some substance too, he moaned, “there is nothing the fault with you, you may speak whatever you wish. Its a demon, hell bent on taking my life, which has entered your soul and makes you speak like this.”

(The king had rightly made out that it was not the Kaikeyi whom he had known as she was behaving in a manner never before seen by the king and in reality too she was under influence of crooked advice of Manthara which had formed the substance of Kaikeyi’s pronouncements.)

We have now covered up to Doha 35 of Ayodhya Kand.

Bhavani Shankar Ki Jai!
Shri Jankivallabho Vijayatey!
Sant Samaj Ko Pranam!
Goswami Tulsidas Ki Jai!

HariOm,

Krishna Khandelwal

rahey dil meiN ummeed…

October 19, 2014

mijaaz meiN turshi kyoN lahzey meiN hai taav,
alfaaz meiN tanj kyoN diye haiN gahrey ghaav,

hamsey le lo udhaar jo muhabbat meiN kami hai,
bol meetthey bolo dil ki gahraaiyoN se aaye aawaaz!

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rukhsaar pe khushi ho rahey dil meiN ummeed,
jang e khudaai jeet lo baqaayadaa batahzeeb,

baahar nikalana seekh lo duniya ke fareb sey,
kyoN ke kai baar jeet haar hai haar hai jeet!

‘kayar’

Ramcharit Charcha CCCLV

October 19, 2014

II Shree Guruvey Namah II

Jai Shri Ram,

II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II

आगें दीखि जरत रिस भारी। मनहुँ रोष तरवारि उघारी।।
मूठि कुबुद्धि धार निठुराई। धरी कूबरीं सान बनाई।।
लखी महीप कराल कठोरा। सत्य कि जीवनु लेइहि मोरा।।
बोले राउ कठिन करि छाती। बानी सबिनय तासु सोहाती।।
प्रिया बचन कस कहसि कुभाँती। भीर प्रतीति प्रीति करि हाँती।।
मोरें भरतु रामु दुइ आँखी। सत्य कहउँ करि संकरू साखी।।
अवसि दूतु मैं पठइब प्राता। ऐहहिं बेगि सुनत दोउ भ्राता।।
सुदिन सोधि सबु साजु सजाई। देउँ भरत कहुँ राजु बजाई।।
दो0- लोभु न रामहि राजु कर बहुत भरत पर प्रीति।
मैं बड़ छोट बिचारि जियँ करत रहेउँ नृपनीति।।31।।

We covered up to Doha 31 of Ayodhya Kand in Ramcharit Manas of Tulsidas in the last post and learned that Kaikeyi took response of King Dashrath as very offensive and looked at him so menacingly that king felt that she was bent on taking his life. King summoned courage and told her pleadingly in sweet words that why she had to speak such harsh words in an inappropriate manner which doesn’t seem to take in to account her regard, love or trust for himself. King said that Bharat and Ram were truly like his two eyes, which fact even Lord Shankar would endorse. He committed to send for Bharat next morning itself who would rush back along with Shatrughan and later on an auspicious day he would be declared king publicly. King said that Ram had not been interested in the empire and had great love and regard for Bharat; that it was him only who had so decided keeping in mind the royal policy of senior getting to rule the state rather than the junior.

राम सपथ सत कहुउँ सुभाऊ। राममातु कछु कहेउ न काऊ।।
मैं सबु कीन्ह तोहि बिनु पूँछें। तेहि तें परेउ मनोरथु छूछें।।
रिस परिहरू अब मंगल साजू। कछु दिन गएँ भरत जुबराजू।।
एकहि बात मोहि दुखु लागा। बर दूसर असमंजस मागा।।
अजहुँ हृदय जरत तेहि आँचा। रिस परिहास कि साँचेहुँ साँचा।।
कहु तजि रोषु राम अपराधू। सबु कोउ कहइ रामु सुठि साधू।।
तुहूँ सराहसि करसि सनेहू। अब सुनि मोहि भयउ संदेहू।।
जासु सुभाउ अरिहि अनुकूला। सो किमि करिहि मातु प्रतिकूला।।
दो0- प्रिया हास रिस परिहरहि मागु बिचारि बिबेकु।
जेहिं देखाँ अब नयन भरि भरत राज अभिषेकु।।32।।

The king then addressed Kaikeyi and explain further, “I swear by Ram and even otherwise I am disposed only to say the truth and hence you should believe that there is no hand of Kaushlya in this. However since I did all this without first asking you, I have all my heart felt wishes annulled. It is now only proper for you to stop agitating and be propitiously dressed up for only a few days from now Bharat will be the crown prince of Ayodhya. I am really upset only by what you asked as second boon which is disturbing and not in line with what you should want. My heart burns even at this moment by the fire it created. Tell if it is a temporary reaction on account of your anger or it is just that you are joking, also if it is what you really intended.

“You may better stop being angry and tell what wrong has Ram done; all the people say all the time that there is no one as much gentle and noble in disposition as Ram is. Besides you have been appreciating him all the time and have been affectionate towards him but what you just now said makes me doubt veracity of your behavior. How on earth some one whose temperament and conduct is favorable to even an enemy of his can be seen to be acting against his own mother.

“In this light I beseech you to drop any misgivings or the banter, whatever it is and you must demand any thing only thoughtfully and rationally so that I may practically see and enjoy the crowning ceremony of dear Bharat in full measure.”

We have now covered up to Doha 32 of Ayodhya Kand.

जिऐ मीन बरू बारि बिहीना। मनि बिनु फनिकु जिऐ दुख दीना।।
कहउँ सुभाउ न छलु मन माहीं। जीवनु मोर राम बिनु नाहीं।।
समुझि देखु जियँ प्रिया प्रबीना। जीवनु राम दरस आधीना।।
सुनि म्रदु बचन कुमति अति जरई। मनहुँ अनल आहुति घृत परई।।
कहइ करहु किन कोटि उपाया। इहाँ न लागिहि राउरि माया।।
देहु कि लेहु अजसु करि नाहीं। मोहि न बहुत प्रपंच सोहाहीं।
रामु साधु तुम्ह साधु सयाने। राममातु भलि सब पहिचाने।।
जस कौसिलाँ मोर भल ताका। तस फलु उन्हहि देउँ करि साका।।
दो0-होत प्रात मुनिबेष धरि जौं न रामु बन जाहिं।
मोर मरनु राउर अजस नृप समुझिअ मन माहिं।।33।।

The king further said to Kaikeyi, “It may be possible for the fish to live without water, it may also be possible for a snake to live like a grieving and powerless being when his prized possession i e the Mani (certain types of snakes have a hard, ever shining stone, on their fangs and when it is removed from there they become almost lifeless and very very sad) is removed from its head but you may take it very seriously that I wouldn’t be alive when separated from Ram, it is not a bluff but rather ingrained character of mine. O smart lady, you are dear to my heart, you must be able to clearly see this, I live only to see Ram around.”

Embittered Kaikeyi listened to soft words of the king and erupted like flaming fire when fuel is added and responded saying, “you may try millions of means (to pacify me) but your game plan will not work with me. Either you grant what I have asked for or opt for the bad-name for declining to honor your word, I am not interested in your pretentious behavior. That Ram is noble and virtuous and you are too along with being wise; on top of it Kaushlya is very benign and genial, I understand all of it. The kind of welfare Kaushalya keeps in her mind for me, I am going to deliver a similar type in return, this is my resolve.

“If by next morning Ram doesn’t leave for the forest in garb of Munis, you may better be sure of my death and spread of your own disgraceful reputation (there are not going to be any other two ways about it).”

(We learnd above that King Dashrath expressed his inability to feel Ram, the God, around although He is always there and never leaves us, he had still not reached that stage of God-orientation but had become fond of Him and wanted to always see Him around. This tells the difference between the capacities of people who can concentrate also on God as an abstract phenomenon but most of people however high in status or however righteous fail to enjoy His formless company unless they see His form. Tulsidas earlier has already explained while discussing the importance of Ram Naam that name is the bridge between the form and formlessness of God and that when name is taken the form comes to be seen in mind as well as thought also holds Him in contemplation. In the end there is nothing that can equal knowledge, ‘na hi gyaanen sadrusham pavitramih vidyatey’ i e there is nothing so holy as Knowledge; the king ought to have gained full knowledge about God which he had not so far. The king is perplexed because of missing this real understanding about Shri Ram as God Supreme. Also Tulsi’s view remains that though knowledge about God is a necessity, it is also that pure knowledge is difficult to retain at all times on one hand and on the other it doesn’t please and amuse the heart so much unless the devotee has Bhakti which can be strengthened by keeping name and form at center. Thorough devotion (Bhakti) leads to knowledge as also realization about God should lead to love for the Lord having form and name. King Janak had absolute understanding and knowledge about the Supreme God’s real nature but when he looked at Shri Ram, who was none other than the avatar of the Supreme God, his heart became overly joyful that gave him idea about who Shri Ram really was even before some one telling him so. This was the moment when he felt an immense relief in heart besides his intellectual discovery of the reality of the Supreme God earlier which had not given him such blissful pleasure.)

We have covered up to Doha 33 of Ayodhya Kand.

Bhavani Shankar ki jai!
Shri Jankivallabho Vijayatey!
Sant Samaj Ko Pranam!
Goswami tulsidas Ki Jai!

HariOm,
Krishna Khandelwal

Ramcharit Charcha CCCLIV

October 13, 2014

II Shree Guruvey Namah II

Jai Shri Ram,

II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jao Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II
II Sri Ram Jai Ram Jai Jai Ram II

एहि बिधि राउ मनहिं मन झाँखा। देखि कुभाँति कुमति मन माखा।।
भरतु कि राउर पूत न होहीं। आनेहु मोल बेसाहि कि मोही।।
जो सुनि सरु अस लाग तुम्हारें। काहे न बोलहु बचनु सँभारे।।
देहु उतरु अनु करहु कि नाहीं। सत्यसंध तुम्ह रघुकुल माहीं।।
देन कहेहु अब जनि बरु देहू। तजहुँ सत्य जग अपजसु लेहू।।
सत्य सराहि कहेहु बरु देना। जानेहु लेइहि मागि चबेना।।
सिबि दधीचि बलि जो कछु भाषा। तनु धनु तजेउ बचन पनु राखा।।
अति कटु बचन कहति कैकेई। मानहुँ लोन जरे पर देई।।
दो0-धरम धुरंधर धीर धरि नयन उघारे रायँ।
सिरु धुनि लीन्हि उसास असि मारेसि मोहि कुठायँ।।30।।

We covered up to Doha 30 of Ayodhya Kand of Ramcharit Manas of Tulsidas in the last post and learned that King Dashrath began to introspect and assessed the damage on account of Kaikeyi’s demands but his pathetic condition charged Kaikeyi and she began to berate the king asking whether Bharat was not his son, had the king purchased her, why was he so upset to listen what she asked for, why didn’t the king speak first considering the implication etc. She pressed the king to know if the word given to her was going to be honored or not and reminded that he was known to be the most truthful among the Raghus. She admonished the king to refrain from giving any boon or promise any thing in future, he should stop claiming himself a votary of truth and be ready to bear the prospect of having his name spoiled by deviating from course of truthfulness. She reminded the king that only after giving great importance to keeping the cause of truth he had offered to redeem the boons given, it is not on for him to expect that something of little value would be asked for. She related the stories of King Sibi, of Rishi Dadhichi and or demon king Bali who had kept their promises even at the cost of their body, life and possessions. In this way queen kept uttering harsh words as if smearing salt on wound inflicted earlier. King later collected himself and slowly opened his eyes while turned his head uncomfortably and just sighed heavily and could speak words to the effect that she had struck at the selected weak spots with deadly consequences.

आगें दीखि जरत रिस भारी। मनहुँ रोष तरवारि उघारी।।
मूठि कुबुद्धि धार निठुराई। धरी कूबरीं सान बनाई।।
लखी महीप कराल कठोरा। सत्य कि जीवनु लेइहि मोरा।।
बोले राउ कठिन करि छाती। बानी सबिनय तासु सोहाती।।
प्रिया बचन कस कहसि कुभाँती। भीर प्रतीति प्रीति करि हाँती।।
मोरें भरतु रामु दुइ आँखी। सत्य कहउँ करि संकरू साखी।।
अवसि दूतु मैं पठइब प्राता। ऐहहिं बेगि सुनत दोउ भ्राता।।
सुदिन सोधि सबु साजु सजाई। देउँ भरत कहुँ राजु बजाई।।
दो0- लोभु न रामहि राजु कर बहुत भरत पर प्रीति।
मैं बड़ छोट बिचारि जियँ करत रहेउँ नृपनीति।।31।।

King saw Kaikeyi standing before him enraged and furious as if the wrath itself had shown its naked sword which had its butt made of nastiness, its edge representing heartless cruelty which had been sharpened on the crooked stone that was Manthara. The king looked at her and thought that might be this menacing sharp weapon in form of Kaikeyi would really take his life. Ultimately the king regaining some strength in his heart chose to address the queen with humility and in pleasing words and said, “O dear, what kind of words do you speak in such inappropriate manner, you have let go of all the fear of me, confidence in me and love for me. Bharat and Ram are like my two eyes, this the reality and Lord Shankar would confirm the same as having witnessed. First thing in morning, I would send a messenger and both the brothers, Bharat and Shatrughan, would rush back; then after selecting an auspicious day and making due preparations I will confer kingship on Bharat with fanfare.

“Ram has no greed for holding empire besides he has great affection towards Bharat. It was my own attempt at keeping the tradition of transferring the kingship to the elder one instead to the younger of the two.”

(What is paradoxical here is that the king is ready to break the long held tradition of eldest son getting the right to be the king but has come under tremendous pressure on account of prospect of breaking the tradition of holding the promise while in first case people would have been happier and in the later case people would be most unhappy. As a king he should have thought of his people also. This is how an able and just person also loses ability to think clearly when he is under under duress and thinks himself to be victim of circumstances. Dashrath did give more weight to the prospect of his own name getting spoiled for not keeping his word, a personal loss but is ready to neglect the duty as a king. If he had surrendered to the God completely and calmly witness what was going to happen and may be this way the situation would have been saved for him but here it may be understood that destiny has to play out in the end and Dashrath’s momentary weakness remained.)

We have now covered up to Doha 31 of Ayodhya Kand.

Bhavani Shankar Ki Jai!
Shri Jankivallabho Vijayatey!
Sant Samaj Ko Pranam!
Goswami Tulsidas ki jai!

HariOm,
Krishna Khandelwal


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